Depress shine?

I can say that less than a week ago I was truly completely happy. Now as the weekend hits I feel like crap, physically and mentally. Why? That is what I want to know. Maybe it is because I am fearing being stood up to hang out by my best friend. Or maybe it is because life in the romance section hasn't changed since... the day I was born. Or maybe it is because I am just plain ole' bored. Or maybe just maybe I have to much on my plate. Or maybe I am too anxious for the summer. I don't know but it is all driving me crazy. My head constantly hurts, I feel feverish and nauseated , and I want to cry. Why? I don't know. I am just sick of it. I don't even have the option of suicide. And I haven't been to my psychiatrist in so many weeks I lost count! HELP! Please, I just need someone to tell me everything is going to be okay! That and a boyfriend would be nice too!

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I am posting this as a bulletin because I actually WANT people to read this. This is for all you people who don't talk to me because I am in a wheelchair. All those guys who take me out of the running for girlfriend because I can't walk. All those girls who won't be my friend because they don't know how to treat me. Well treat me like a normal person. I lack social skills but that is not because I am shy even though that is a HUGE part of it. It is because people assume I am a mental retard or I don't WANT friends. Neither of those are true. Everyone has problems... mentally physically etc... mine are just a whole hell of a lot more obvious. I know this will most likely not get read but to those who do read it thank-you. Thanks for giving a shit about me more than anyone else. And thanks for listening.

Why Books Make Life Suck

Romance.

For all those girls out there who have never had a boyfriend, this puts the idea of fairytale love in their heads. I would give anything to have a boyfriend. A sweet, cute, nice, funny guy. But I don't. Why is that? because miracles don't happen in that way. I would do anything (Using the terms anything loosely) to know what it is like to kiss someone, to be in love, to be swept off your feet. But its not the girls who try hard at life who get the guys it is the girls who stick out their chests and raise up their skirts. I know I am young and I have lots of time to be in love but seeing everybody else in love puts me in the dumps. I know my time will come I just want to know when.

Adventure.

Who wouldn't want to travel across Europe? Or swing from vines in Brazil? Or figure out a murder? The reality is most people don't have the time or the money for this. For people who are gullible like me... I urge for adventure, but I know my disabilities hold me back.

Happy Endings.

I once heard a quote, "No one dies a virgin cause we are all screwed in the end." That my friends is an extremely true statement.

Don't Judge a Book by Its Cover

Okay... Quite frankly I know we all suffer from this problem, whether it is actually books or people. My favorite book series, I am ashamed to say I judged by its cover... but guess what I got out of it? A lot of cool things. When it comes to people though you never quite know what you are going to get. I know people who will look at someone and say, "eww, they're ugly!" Did you ever think they were having a bad hair day? And just because they are not always pretty doesn't mean they aren't totally awesome. Last year I was in choir and one of the more experienced choir girls came in. She wore all black, had her hair in a ponytail, and kinda scared me. But everything I thought I knew about her changed when she opened her mouth to sing from one of the prettiest voices I ever heard. You don't call a girl a tramp because she wears a short skirt. You don't choose the cutest boy in class as your partner just because you "think" he looks smart (but it doesn't stop most people from doing it anyway, lol). You wouldn't call me mentally ill just because I am not physically able. But you do anyway. Yesterday a popular boy came up to me in one of my classes and started talking to me like I was stupid. I wanted to throw something at him. By the end of this year I will probably have more college credit than he will gain in his entire life. But I have friends who do this and it really makes me mad. You never fully know someones story, and you won't.... not until you get to know them. The next time you see someone mentally or physically disabled smile at them. Don't go baby talk them, and if you do talk to them treat them like everyone else. In the end we all have one goal... to live life to the best of your ability. How can people do that when you are calling them creepy, or treating them like a 5 year old when they are 15 and a whole hell of a lot mature then you are, or even just not talking to them because they are "different." You could be missing out on a friend who is truly remarkable.